MY THOMAS: A MOTHER'S EULOGY FOR HER DARLING BOY

17 May 2017



Parents shouldn't be burying their child. It's against the natural order. You are supposed to watch them grow and be the person they are meant to be.

But here we are.

When my water broke that early November morning, I said thank you to Pebble. I thanked him for giving me a surprise delivery date. He knew I wanted a surprise despite having a booked C-section. He heard me cry over it for days so he decided to come early.

It was a calm delivery, just like he was. He was a very patient baby from the get go. He rarely complained, even when he's hungry. He would just politely cry for milk.

He almost never complained, even when he was in so much pain. And even through it all, he found means to smile.

He never cried for a wet nappy. He was happy to wait until we changed him.

He smiled a lot even when everything hurts.

He made baby noises that made anyone melt.

He loved watching his hands, they were mesmerising.

He was so content. He accepted everything given to him.

He loved doing peekaboo and did it until the end.

He loved his music. He particularly favoured Ed Sheeran.

He loved watching his Kuya William and looked forward to seeing him again on a school day.

He loved his dad and his silly tricks, he copied them all.

He was such a mummy's boy. He made sure I'm close by and holding his hand before falling asleep.
He made sure I am within hearing range before he trusted anyone. He made sure he can see me before he let anyone played with him.

He fulfilled a lot of my dreams and he gave what our family needed.

Thomas has taught me to be always grateful. The kind of gratitude you find in a difficult situation.

He reinforced what I occasionally forget, to live in the moment and to worry less.

He even reinforced the fact that I am not one with nature, when we went for the shortest walk in the park because of a crossing bobtail lizard.

He gave us the perfect last breath.

He looked at me one last time and then he exhaled.

I gave birth to an angel, too wise for his age. He was put in this world on a mission and that was to spread love and gratitude in every possible way.

His story touched so many hearts around the world and changed so many lives.

He's done beautifully and managed to make a difference in peoples' lives. His presence made an impact, even for his young age, to people near and far more than anyone present today will ever do in their lifetime.

He's deeply loved and I'll miss him so much until we meet again.

He's my darling pebble, forever and always.

We didn't have a happy ending but we have a beautiful story.

Pebble, thank you for choosing mummy and daddy. I love you. Love, mummy.




Sunrise, Sunset (by Jon Blanksby)

sunrise, sunset 
we watch you take your very first breath

sunrise comes bringing hope and joy 
a beautiful 10lb baby boy
big brown eyes and full of hair
a loving look, you glance and stare
hearing our voices for the very first time
we whisper sweet nothings
“we love you, you're mine”
a beautiful smile and chubby cheeks,
we could look into your eyes for weeks.
but whats that on your arm that we find,
it sends a shiver down our spine
it's nothing they say, a birthmark, it's fine
but we best get it checked, all in due time.

weeks pass and the stronger our bond does grow
but then along comes fate to deliver the blow
a sickness that nobody can cure,
a heartache begins for us all to endure.
nothing can change the future so we best make every day last
with laughs and adventures time is going so fast
but at the same time so it passes so slow
and i love for you continue to grow
but the time is close now, you're growing quite weak
even in pain you can barely speak
mummy and daddy say it's ok to sleep
we miss you already and start to weep
hold onto my finger as we say goodbye
but your story isn’t over so lets just say goodnight

we will see you again soon in the stars every night
guiding us through life our own shining light
so much love so much joy,
in such little time with our baby boy
goodnight little warrior with this we promise
we love you with all our hearts our darling little Thomas

sunrise sunset now we lay you down to rest

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We had a beautiful service. Thomas was outdoors, next to a lake and under the dancing trees.

He gave us so many signs.

Warmth of the sun against my face shining through between the trees.

Rainbow while Jon and I were saying our Eulogies.

Butterfly that greeted us at home when we came back from the service.

My darling boy spent the night at home before his funeral. I spent all night with him, kissing and holding his hand. His Kuya gave all the kisses he wanted to give and so as his dad.

It was the perfect send off for a perfect baby boy.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank each and everyone of you reading this, whether we know each other or we don't. The last few months were hard but you gave us comfort from all your beautiful words and kindness.

We are forever grateful.

Much love, The Blanksbys

31 comments :

  1. Thank you for sharing your beautiful baby boy with us, rest in paradise Thomas, hugs and loves from Wollongong xxx

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  2. Absolutely beautiful, and so heart breaking for you three. No family should have to go through this. Lots of love and strength sent your way to get through each day. Your little warrior Thomas will always be with you in your hearts xoxo

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  3. Until we finally meet Thomas, thank you Sheryl for sharing your beautiful angel with us. Surely he is smiling upon us from above. Forever Thomas, you will be in my heart. Thank you sweetheart. You are so loved. I love you, Thomas. As they say, "how fortunate I am to have found someone saying goodbye to so difficult."

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  4. i lost my words . my heart broken again for you and your family, i am very please to know the sunshine was with you today and thank you for sharing your memory of your boy with us.. lot of hugs and kisses

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  5. I don't get tired of praying for you and asking Thomas for light. I'm in Brazil, on the other side of the world and I do not know you. I feel a sadness every day when I see their pastures, in each one it is inevitable that I cry. I've never felt a mourning like this. I have lost several people I love, grandparents, grandfather, friends and I must say that in no one I suffered as I am suffering. I'm suffering from Thomas's mourning. Your family was chosen by God to welcome that angel, he was loved, he was taken care of, and he is eternally grateful to you for it. Thomas is the most beautiful angel in the heavens. Be strong, dear Sherry. You and jon are the force of william, and william the forcr of you. Love you! Strength, courage, light and peace.

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  6. Anapil GadainganMay 17, 2017 at 6:07 PM

    Thank you for sharing your darling boy sweet and beautiful soul.. your angel �� thank you angel thomas for inspiration because of you ill be have more patience and kindness towards my kids hug and kiss them more and love them more each passing day.. that time is precious .. ill be forever grateful knowing you baby thomas.. farewell.. #fromtaclobanphilippines ������

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  7. Thank you for sharing your story and your beautiful baby boy.its amazing how such a tiny baby can have such an impact in such a short amount of time. Thank you baby Thomas for teaching me to appreciate every moment with my family. We send you hugs and love from Los Angeles, CA.

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  8. Beautiful Sheryl and John, Thomas change my life in so many ways, he was so little but he was so big at the same time, he gave me hope and specially see life in so many different ways to appreciate what we have even that is not what we want, to be grateful every single day and when I thought I had a problem looked around and realized that was nothing compared what others go through. I admire you so much and like I said in one of my Facebook posts that god give you special tools that he doesn't give to everyone, yes you are different from all of the regular moms in the world, he choose you to be the mom of Thomas. God bless you guys because in 23 weeks you give me what you probably learn your whole life, I hope you receive my present soon is something that might help you a little bit to go through this process, I send you all the love of my family and prayers.
    The Arroyo family ❤

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  9. I have all posted pictures captured to me of Thomas... i will never forget Thomas... he live in my heart forever...

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  10. This so beautiful...yet so sad. I am sure you would choose the 23 weeks with him than no weeks at all. What a beautiful story, and a blessed family, to have pulled the world towards your baby Thomas. Thinking of your family, with love, from Hong Kong.

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  11. Just when I think I am all cried out you and Jon pull me back with more beautiful heartbreaking words. Thomas and your family have impacted me in a way I never thought possible , with a family I have never met. I still long to see videos of Thomas doing raspberries, playing with his soother and peek-a-boo. The funeral, the eulogies, the last breath and the final night at home were bittersweet. The strength you all have shown in the hardest thing imaginable is awe inspiring and yet I wish that as strong as it has made you, that it never happened. Blanksby family you have a special place in my heart. So much love you to.
    Jessica Quinlan
    Ontario, Canada

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  12. Beautiful eulogy and poem. I miss your darling boy, Thomas, so much. I miss seeing videos of him. His memories will live in the hearts of all the lives he has touched, including mine. Much love to you, your husband, and William. Aloha from Hawaii.

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  13. Sheryl Jonathon and William your strength and your courage is an inspiration to us all. Thomas will always be a beautiful angel taken to spoon. He will watch over and protect you. Thank you for sharing Thomas story and yours. And for teaching us all that there is more to life and to be greatful each day. Xxx

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  14. What beautiful tributes to the eternally beautiful Thomas. We will never, ever forget him and all that he has taught us. We will carry his shining spirit with us always. ��

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  15. I don't think there has been a day I haven't cried since Thomas passed. Either a song or even just watching my two sons, who happen to be almost the same age, bring me to think of him.. and then I can't stop the tears. I'm not sure how you can care about someone so much, who you have never met. But let me tell you, Thomas has made me slow down, and appreciate everything. Never to take anything for granted, and to live in the moment. Now we give extra kisses and hugs, and we play even if the house is a mess.. I can not thank you enough for sharing your sweet boy with the world. He is truly an inspiration and Angel. I will forever carry him in my heart, never to be forgotten. Prayers for you, Jon, and William.

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  16. You will be missed #littleworriorthomas...❤️

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  17. Thank u for sharing ur beautiful little boy with the world..may peace be with you♡

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  18. Sleep well Gorgeous Boy.. Thankyou for sharing your Thomas and your family with us when you could have kept him all to yourselves.. May you relish the beautiful memories of your boy and keep them close.. Watch over your Family Thomas until you all meet again ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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  19. We will miss you very much Thomas thank you mommy an daddy for sharing Little warrior to the world he is a blessing because he still in our hearts I will love you forever baby boy what a beautiful poem for a beautiful angel that made an impact on so many people around the world ❤

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  20. Those words are beyond Strength... I will miss little warrior Thomas and his Beautiful smile... he's with each and everyone of us.. he touched my life so much at the moment I found myself in a difficult time... I pray for healing for all of you.. May you keep seeing signs and share with us all. Hugs from Yvette. Phoenix Arizona.��

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  21. Such beautiful words from both of you. Brought tears to my eyes. Thomas will keep sending signs - keep your eyes and your hearts open to receive them....

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  22. Kisses and hugs for you Little Warrior. We're all gonna miss you ! Stay strong Blanksby Family. God has a purpose for everything happens. Much Love from Philippines. :*

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  23. After reading this I'm reminded again why Thomas was given to you, why you were chosen to be his family. You and your husband have truly understood and accepted what was going to happen. You used this time to spread love and share his story. You made sure Thomas was loved every moment of his life. And even now, as an Angel, he is not only loved by his family, but from people all over the world who have made him a part of their family.
    You and your little warrior have taught the world a precious lesson, enjoy each moment, give and spread love. And for that, I thank you.

    Always praying for you guys. With much love, Aisha from PA, USA ��

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  24. Dear Sheryl,
    The story of your family (Thomas) had and has something that connected the world and dissipated faith, hope and love ... faith in God, hope of the miracle and love for you, your children (for the love that was directed For Thomas, reached for William and took care of his whole family) ... you said that this story had not ended happily, it happens that its history is not over, death is not the end, it is part of a cycle that Directs us in another way, with another sense ...
    We all have a set time here, tomorrow does not belong to us and the only certainty we all have is that we will die one day ... and you (family) made what time Thomas had was the best: full of love. There is a scripture passage that says, "Now therefore remain faith, hope, and love, these three, but the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:13

    Regiane

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  25. Oh Sheryl, how my heart aches for you and your family. Although I never had the pleasure of meeting Thomas in his all too short life, he touched me in a truly remarkable way, as I'm sure he did to many others. He really was an angel baby, and now, sadly, he has his angel wings... Sending love, from my family to yours xx

    Kez | acaciasdreams.com

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  26. Thank you for sharing this! My family feels so connected with yours even though we are in the states in New Jersey. We will continue to send strength and love for you all. You are all amazing!! We will continue to have your good nights be our good mornings and your good mornings be our good nights. Hopefully when William gets Jackson storm it will bring a smile to his and then you and your husbands faces. Thomas will love seeing him be happy and play with it just like I have watched the last few months. Much love to you all

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  27. I need to tell you ever since i found out about Thomas i have been praying for him every day,literally every day.I thought about him a lot,talked about him to others,first thing i did in the morning was checking out he is fine,before bed if you psoted a new picture with a happy thomas i went to bed happy.I prayed so hard to God,but few days before his passing in a dream i saw Thomas will not survive,its like God was telling me "no your prayers can not be accepted" but thomas was happy,i looked up to heaven and said "he is feeling better now" in that dream,it was not a positive dream back then but now i realize it was

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  29. Thank you for sharing your beautiful stories with#littlewarriorThomas���� who taught us to live in the momen, no matter what happens in the future! ❤️❤️❤️

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  30. I came across your instagram one day, attracted by the photo of a gorgeous happy baby boy. Your little warrior Thomas! I pray for you and your family daily for God's comfort in your loss. There are no words. Thank you for sharing your angel. My life and my heart as a mother is forever changed.

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  31. I don't know how anyone could read this without shedding tears. Thank you for sharing your story and beautiful baby with the world. I will continue to think of and pray for you and your family, Sheryl. He is the most beautiful baby

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